Remembering Rhythm & Blues: A Peek Into My Past Emotions With H-Town

A Peek Into My Past Emotions With H-Town

Emotions make you cry sometimes, emotions make you sad sometimes, emotions make you glad sometimes, but most of all they make you fall in love...

Sunday, February 6, 2000 9:08 PM

Dear God,
I miss him and I can’t seem to shake him from my mind. Every day and moment, I’m thinking about him, but really gets to me is the trip to Florida that we took. Each time I think of it, it makes me go crazy. I miss those times and the memories are endless. Like when we first got there, we were so horny and couldn’t wait to get into each other's pants. The first thing we did was have sex and it was GOOD. I know that we will go on another trip together, it’s just a matter of when. I want to go NOW. I MISS the times we shared and I wish he would come home. I can’t wait to move out because I hope that it will bring a stronger side out of me and him. I wish he would just come to me and let me take care of him again. I am his RIB. I’m cold and lonely and I need some affection. Why do we play so many games with each other, why can’t we just say I need you, you need me, let’s just do it and be together? I’m so tired of waiting around and letting time pass us by. I feel so sad and depressed. I sleep the weekends away and nothing happens in my life. Is this what I have to look forward to? It’s looks as if I won’t get married to him and it’s been so long, I don’t even think he even feels the same as me. I’m so confused and tired of it all. I just want it to end, but it’s bittersweet. Does he think about being my husband and making love to me late at night? Our first child and house? I do and it’s overwhelming me! I can’t focus when I think about him and the past? I have to focus and think about all the things I need to accomplish. I’m horny now and I want to please him, but it’s hard when he won’t give into the love that we have. I didn’t mean to cry on the phone today, but the pain and hurt came back hard. I asked him to come home and he said no outright. That hurt me and more hurt that comes my way, the more I feel like I have to run from him. The X-Files show is the bomb to me! Everything’s gonna be all right, I just have to keep thinking about the future and not let anything stand in my way. I love you, Jesus, please let me and _____ get back together.